Hi Brenda. Things are bad down here. There is so much hurt, resentment, anger, hate, and malcontent toward me from within the family...and it is tearing Jeffery apart. He is in so much pain and feels nothing can be done to or will change their hearts towards me to mend the brokenness between them and me. I have made a lot of mistakes over the last year and probably some before that too. I have said things and acted childishly towards them and hurt them. Things I was unable to take back but regretted nonetheless almost immediately after because I was simple under a lot of stress myself. I have talked with Jeffery so much over the last year because I have been wanting to make amends for my words and behavior towards them, but he tells me he believes it will not change anything but only make things worse...so he tells me not to go there. I don't know what else to do anymore. I love your son, I love your mother and your sisters. I love your entire family and just keep hoping they will one day give me the opportunity to say how stupid I was and foolish. And that they will let me say I'm sorry and ask for their forgiveness. I am so flawed in so many ways and am trying to learn and grow. I want to become the best person I can be but I guess it doesn't happen for everyone the same...me not without a lot of falling down on the way. If you could help me out I would really appreciate it. Because if this doesn't get better I believe it is going to distroy Jeffery's spirit. He loves his family so much and needs them. And I love him enough to let him go because if he feels they are making him choose between me or them I believe he will choose me. And I don't want it to come to that because I love your family so much I am willing to walk away if that would keep them together. But He will just end up resenting who ever he feels is making him choose. And He has also told me if I walk away from him because of this it would just continue to strain his relationship with his family that much more. I feel like I'm between a rock and a hard spot. He won't let me ask for forgiveness no matter the genuine sincerity in my heart because he believes it won't change them or anything. And if I were to walk away to solve the issue because this is tearing him apart it won't solve anything. I just feel like my hands are tied and there is nothing I can do even though I believe this is all my fault and started with me. So this is why I wish you were here. To give us guidance and maybe help us figure this all out because Jeffery and I are hurting and need help with this. I love you. I hope you hear my heart and know how much I am trying and love you son and family. I am so sorry I make this amuck. I would like to fix them but only time will tell.